Thursday, April 22, 2010

Double Standard

I was suppose to go for a long run yesterday, 10 miles, I headed out...and felt horrible! After 3.5 miles I turned around and figured that I would just have to settle for 7..and try to fit 10 in on Saturday! Well, I passed a friends house and she was in the yard....I can't believe what happened next! I asked for a ride home! YUP! I quit! I ran 3.5 miles and asked for a ride home! I know for a fact her husband will NEVER let me live it down...I may never!

Since that moment of quitting...I have been sulking in self pity! And yet, I can't sulk too much, because my life is the best! I have never been happier! I have a Fantastic Husband who works hard everyday, and then comes home with a smile on his face, prepared to play Lions and Tigers with the kids, before I put them down to bed! (or usually after I already put them in bed...he gets them out...plays the game and them back they go!...Odd routine!) I have 5 children, who give me 100% pure joy all time! We have so much fun together....I really need nothing else! (Except you...my dear blog buddies....I live in a virtual social world!)

So this morning I sat down and was trying to figure everything out!

Probably the hardest part of my fitness life is that I am carrying 10-20 pounds too much weight. If I did what I am doing now, 2 years ago, I would have been back to my normal weight. I really am trying...but my metabolism has dropped....(probably lack of muscle)! I realize as life goes on this is only going to continue to get tougher. So why do I have a hard time making the adjustments needed? I think it is because I am a human trash disposal...I munch on all my kids left overs!

Then, my wise husband solved the problem....If I fed them what is healthy it would not matter if I munched behind them. So I have a double standard of what they need and what I needed! Honestly, it is not different! Their young bodies need the same healthy nutrients to build a strong body as mine! I am thankful, for this little breakdown...so that I could realize that not only do I need to eat better...but they do as well. In the end we will both win!

16 comments:

  1. Don't beat yourself up about this. We all have these "breakdowns" and we all feel like failures when it happens. You did the right thing by taking the positive from this. You have a super family and super life. I think we just have to accept the fact that losing weight and getting into shape becomes more difficult as we get older, but hey, you're still doing it and that's great! You'll see your next run will be a good one.

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  2. You're doing great!
    I do the same thing with my kids. It's so easy to give into their processed food requests. They love it, it's easy and it's cheap. That's one thing we're trying to change at our house too. It's breaking an addiction!

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  3. Sometimes you're the windshield, sometimes you're the bug. Don't sweat this time, internalize how you're feeling now, and tap into it for motivation if you need it. Sometimes the legs and mind just aren't firing, or aren't firing together. Think of it as added rest for your next go.

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  4. I call these the small "aha" moments of life...we are faced with the realization that something must change. We figure it out and we make the necessary changes. Then we move on and enjoy the benefits of that change :)
    You'll get that 10 miler done!!

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  5. There was nothing wrong with that run, somedays we just dont have "it", your smart enough to call it a day instead of risking a possible injury later on. Smart move in my opinion

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  6. Don't be too hard on yourself. Some days I just can't muster the energy to run either! Thank goodness for my running partner who gets me going on those days.

    Eating healthy food is something we are working on here at our house too. Some days we eat better than others! Like today . . . lunch was spaghetti dogs - take a look on my blog. Far from healthy, but we had fun! :)

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  7. I agree with Judi--don't beat yourself up! It's great to have a little epiphany every once and a while to jump start things. Have a great day.

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  8. By eating all my kids left overs all the time I gained HUGE weight....that wasn't the only reason but it did not help! Since losing 45+ Lbs I have had to learn discipline and when they are done nowadays I do not eat the Pizza / Mac and Cheese or whatever is left.
    Good recognition, you are doing great keep pluggin away!
    -Derek

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  9. I am glad to have been of help you looked great running and I know that you could have made it. Call me I have something to ask you. You are an awesome mom much better then me. Your kiddos are so lucky and you do great feeding them!! Don't beat yourself up we are care takers of ourselves plus everyone else in our families and we can't be perfect all the time but in my book you are perfect!! You inspire me!!!! If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be running and loving it. Keep your chin high God created you so special and that is what I love about you.

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  10. ugh, the days when ya just can't do the workout...and the upset feelings the ensue..it's just not fair.

    but that's all part of the training process. Good days and bad days. that's the way it goes..and pushing through it knowing that next time will bring a dif result. I know it's easy to say...but it's okay! it's all good;-)

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  11. Stay strong, that's the most important thing. Just getting out there and smiling does something wonderful for your body and mind, keep it up!

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  12. Wow, I'm impressed. You cut a long run short (Sorry, but I'm laughing about getting a ride home :-) ), and then the next day figure out answers to what's been bothering you. I always like to think that things happen for a reason. So in this case you not completing your planned 10 miles did indeed happen for a reason. How cool is that?!

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  13. I have been trying really hard to be more aware of what I amd feeding my daughter - because I definitely have that double standard. I want to build healthy habits for her so it is easier for her to make good choices.

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  14. We all have bad days - don't beat yourself up. It will happen.

    Hang in there!

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  15. I have struggled with the baby weight for the last 4 year. Those damn last 10 lbs. It took training for a HIM to get it off. But what I noticed is my eating habits somewhat improved and that helped more than anyghing. I'm probably still a couple of pounds off, but I can live with it. IT is hard and I totally get it.

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  16. Sherri, you are one great wife, mother, and niece. :) I hope you are not being too hard on yourself. Here is another suggestion. Do not over cook. Nancy is trying that to help me, but I keep sneaking crackers. Don't tell her, because she may stop buying them. :) I am so impressed with you. Love you.

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